Wednesday 26 July 2023

He came home late again! (Short Story)










“You have come late again! Do you realize it is 11 PM in the night?”    

  Well, I will  jolly well come home when I feel like it! “  

“ So what’s your problem?  When I ask you a  straight question, you have no proper answer and yet you are behaving strangely with each passing day” 

“ There are some things we can’t tell straight to the face. But if you cared enough you would understand Deepika.” 

“ Are you suggesting that I don’t care? How dare you  Kartik! We have been married now for over three years. I see that your behaviour has been becoming from bad to worse in the last six months. What is the matter with you?”   

 “ Deepika, I cannot tolerate a third person coming in between us, husband  and wife!” 

“ Now, what do you mean by that?” 

“I mean that our privacy and freedom is being violated. I seem to matter to you less and less with each passing day!  Then, what does it concern you at what time I come in“

“Hey, Kartik have you gone mad !” 

“It is not about me having gone mad!  If the situation here continues like this, I will certainly become mad. Who should decide whether we should go for a late night show?  Whether I should buy you a new watch or Whether we or the children should sleep in the master bedroom?

“ You know that only the master bedroom has an attached bath room. “

“Ok so tell me! Who should decide even the smallest of things in this house?”

“I know what you are getting at  Karthik! ! This conversation is not  going anywhere! I understand your problem. It is your poor self esteem that gets you to see anything and everything as interference!” 

“ what do you mean poor self esteem! I had sufficient self  esteem to be hired by a multinational company.  They always looked up to me at office!  If anything, getting married to you has been the beginning  of my  problems of self esteem.” 

“ What do you want? That my mother shouldn’t speak to me or advice me ever? You know that I am her only daughter!”

“ Deepika, why does she have to call 5 to 6 times daily?  Why is it that she is the first person to know everything that happens in this house, even before me? Why do you report to her like a running commentary even the smallest of tiffs and private conversations we have?” 

“ I think, you are becoming oversensitive Kartik. Is this the reason that you have been behaving strangely for the last three months? 

“ Deepika, it hurt me that you couldn’t wait to tell me that you are pregnant with our third child. You chose to tell your mother first.

 Frankly, I am not at all thrilled with the way our life is shaping.  I have some problems in the office as well. The new boss doesn’t seem to like me. He picks holes in my work  so often, I fear I may even lose my job!

I think you should go in for an MTP so that we can have our next child later, if at all when we are mentally prepared for it.”

“Kartik  buck up. You are getting worked up unnecessarily. My mother has been always  concerned  about me  as I am her only daughter…..Okay, okay,  since this matters to you so much , I will reduce my interaction with her, may be one call per day instead of 6?”  

Kartik gave a weak , relieved smile; his eyes registering  a sign of hope. Just then  Deepika’s mobile rang. She moved away to answer it in the bedroom. 

“ Well dear, has he returned yet?  It is high time you became firm with such wayward ways! ”  

“Hush, Amma. I will tell you all about it in detail tomorrow…”  

Tuesday 18 July 2023

What if?












What if on waking in the morning

Both of us were like blank slates

Remembering nothing from the past?


 Looking at each other, like giggly teenagers

Expectant, curious, wanting to know more

About each other, excitement like on a first date

Or first night of an arranged marriage

 

Nothing to compare, complain of the past

Just the tingling, pulsating, thrilling present

No boredom, yawns of “Have been there, So what’s new?”

 

 Let’s pretend like newborns

No accusations, complaints of let downs

Of disappointments, not meeting expectations

no past or future, just the gift of present

What if? Hey what if  dear….

We could start with a clean slate once again?  


NB: This poem has been included in the International anthology "Love and Longing" featuring 123 distinguished poets from eight countries  





Friday 7 July 2023

Travelers all of us!



Some have traveled abroad

others to different parts of the country

some within the state, 

yet others to the next district, village... 


Even if we have never traveled 

beyond place of residence 

we  still qualify as travelers

traveling from infancy, to childhood, 

then, youthhood, middle age, old age..  


We travel through our thoughts

memories, hopes, aspirations, frustrations 

our journey can be a burden, if clinging 

not letting go- of past misfortune, slights, grievances 

even when we have moved on in life

traveled long distances ...  


If remember, you must, remember the happy moments

sweet memories to cherish, uplift & raise spirits 

for travel we must, from birth to death

no option or choice there

only choice is between carrying or offloading

the burden of bitterness at each stage


Moving on, minus the baggage keeps travel

smooth, light and carefree

even when passing through difficult stages 

be it adversity, conflict or old age issues 


A traveler for life - whether happy, sad or grumpy 

depends on the mental make up, inclination

It's determined by the traveller, himself or herself! 

NB:  I recited this poem during the Seniors Today poetry meet on 7th July 2023     



Thursday 6 July 2023

The Idea of Love








Love. its meaning is so different 

for a child, a teenager, youth 

the middle aged and senior citizen  


For a child, his first love maybe chocolates

followed by love for mom and dad  

desire and longing in youth

replaced by care and support 

in the autumn years... 


Yet, the passage of time did nothing

 to modify "Conditional  love" to "unconditional  love" 

old conditions merely replaced by new ones 

as life circumstances changed

 

"Should always come first in class

replaced by "Study the course I choose"

unconditional love, a false hope, a mirage 

unattainable in an earthly life ! 


NB: This poem has been included in the International anthology "Love and Longing" featuring 123 distinguished poets from eight countries